well i think that the title gave away wat im thinking about. im still a technophobe, sadly.
i found out that i have an 84 in english!! yes!!

im stoked for animazment im gunna b the queen of hearts (im sure in its long existance that someone make a crack in anime about it)

well im thirsty so im gunna go BYE BYE!

I have ta hurry cuz im late 4 skool, im sorry for being a scardy-cat but im now a technophobe.
this is my 1st journal since august 26th!

well gotta run and take 2 backtoback tests

I love him
but he doesn't love me
why cant he see
that we were ment to be
together in blissful
harmony?

But those days are over
if you're too blind to realize
what's standing in front of you
then uncover your eyes
I'm gone
never to return again
this is sin
it'll never be like it's been
you've lost your chance
but I've changed
but I'm still the same
you can play your little games
but you'll never win.

I'm the queen of this chessboard
i don't need a king to protect me
i stand alone.

I'd love to hate you
but even more
I'd hate to love you
but I still do
I miss you.
You're blue eyes
like boundless skies
will never see me
in the same way again.

Because of your hesitation
and all the mis-communication
there was no representation
to hide the most important fact.

Your solemn voice
never to be heard by me
like it was meant to be
why can't I see?
That underneath it all
I'm the one to fall
never worthy to see you again
This is sin
where have I been?
God, how i miss you.

Love is war
and those willing to die
are fit to live
but never again.

The view may be extraordinary
but the painting itself is blurred
say those three words
like I've imagined you would
like i want you to
be true
be different than the mainstream
but hit the scene
please don't be mean.

You think I'm okay
you think I'm alright
neither matters
because I've caught sight
of who you really are.

I would have sold my soul for you
I would have been true
to you and only you
but that chance is gone
I was a wreck.

But I'll pick up the pieces
of my shattered heart
and come out stronger
than you wish you were
stare all you want
at the new me
can't you see?
your own mediocrity?

What a fool I'd been
to wear my heart on my sleeve
I think you should leave
thanks to you
nothing can be like it's been
this is sin.

Me and went camping in our camper for 4 days in Cherokee and we met the awesome-est people!!
here's the crew:
Jobro- the kid that looks freakishly like Joe Jonas and apparently smells like cupcakes

Stripes- the idiot redneck who lives in a shack and always wears something with stripes (my personal favorite)

Telegirl- the loudmouthed nosy girl who's perfect job is an annoying telemarketer.

Camper- the new girl who's camping 4 3 weeks

Shrimp- the small kid

Stubby- the mindless lacky of Stripes who's aim sux

Sir Dives-a-lot- the boy who dives continuously in no diving zones

Senior Scuba Pants- the small kid who owns scuba gear and uses it in the pool.

so we got kicked out of the arcade for sitting in the employee only table outside. so we go back inside and this is what happened:
B:i want nachos
ME: where r the nachos? oh by the ice cream! u want some?
B: no i want nachos
ME: im getting ice cream, u want some?
B: NO!
ME: u wanna just go back to camp?
B: fine! but i still want nachos!
so then at 10:00 pm we went on the swing set for AN HOUR AND A HALF! and these drunken teenagers came over to swing. one guy was like butt-scratchers! in a weird accent and the other guy looked like a blonde Alex Rowel from my school (druggie ways included) the girl was either high or drunk. drunk people are always the funniest! the high guy was like (OMG! THIS IS LIKE BEING ON A ROLLER COASTER! WHOA!!)
so i found a bike ringer and rung it every time i passed by these 4 elderly people sitting by their camper and they'd go (ring ur bell) and id ring it with a stupid look on my face like and i got in this race with a little girl! we'd ring our bells and i'd be like (I WILL GET THE LAST RING!) and just made a ringing sound.
so the first time we met Stripes and Stubby i was going into the camper and i turn to see Stubby riding a bike and Stripes is on the handlebars! and i shouted (THAT'S VERY ATTRACTIVE!!) in a sarcastic manner and he shouted (I'LL DO WHAT I WANT!!) and then the next day they were playing football with these incredibly hot boys without shirts!! and then we got on the swing set after riding bikes after dark. so i looked over and a flood of hot guys were walking our way like we were testosterone magnets!! so S $ S swung next to us and Stubby asked (do ya like frog wrangling??) and i thought it meant you catch frogs while swimming so i was like but then i found our it means you spear them and eat them and i was like THAT'S DISGUSTING! and so we made plans to go see them at the pool at 11:00 but turns out they took my sarcasm seriously and they got there at 9:00...
I'll add more l8ter!

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

10. Make me a sandwich woman! (i don't mean to offend cause i'm a girl too)

9. I FOUND A CARROT!!!!

8. get a haircut HIPPIE!

7. so does this mean the wedding's a bust?

6. it makes your butt look huge

5. look want i made!

4. those exist?

3. i need a favor... and bail money... whichever comes first...

2. care to join me?

1. you make me smile when you smile

NINE things about yourself:

9. I like being myself; therefore, I am attractive.

8. i'm a proud supporter of doing nothing

7. i tried to skateboard once but fell in a ditch

6. i like boys with long hair (i dunno why, i just think its attractive)

5. i like cereal

4. i think fanny is the greatest word in the English language

3. i'm a genius but act like an idiot

2. i started an indoor snowball fight and got detention for it

1. i'm a dessert-aterian its a real commitment

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

8. Make me laugh and smile.

7. Tell me I am beautiful and mean it.

6. Treat me like a lady, or even a queen...although i never act like a queen.

5. Tell me the truth even if it hurts to hear it.

4. Love me just as much or even more than I love you.

3. Hold me when I want to be held.

2. Make me a BLT, hold the lettuce and tomato

1. Make me scream from wanting you so bad.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

7. my tongue feels fuzzy

6. was that my 'outside' voice?

5. well that's attractive

4. how can i get money without having to work?

3. i love my dysfunctional friends

2. where's the bathroom?

1. and i care, why?

SIX things you do before you fall asleep :

6. make myself laugh

5. text someone, even if i don't know them

4. look at my yearbook

3. sing in the shower

2. watch TV

1. think of S.O.S then slap my forehead for saying something stupid to him

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment: (not in any order)

5. Mom

4. my inner personalities

3. Natalie

2. Bonnie

1. God

FOUR things you see right now:

4. a computer screen

3. my Ipod

2. an extremely long math equation

1. your untimely demise!

THREE songs that you listen to often at the moment:

3.girl by Hellogoodbye

2. my life would suck without you by Kelly Clarkson

1. this town, your grave by Innerpartysystem

TWO things you want to do before you die:

2. admit to my crush that i like him without saying something stupid

1. be in a major motion picture

ONE confession:

i can't decide between a skater or a skitzo... any help?